Friday 15 November 2013

Fear is stupid.

so are regretsHi, i'm Brianne and I am afraid of the dark. Not really, I'm afraid of what hides in the dark. Funny little side story. I'm a little bit blind, I've had glasses since I was in grade 2, and without them I'd be Mrs. Magoo.. So, you remember those big tacky pens you'd get at the book fairs at school, that when you pressed down on them, the end would light up red? No? Google it, I'll wait.

Welcome back. Okay, so one day in grade 5, my group of friends (aka the little assholes), told me this story about Bloody Mary. Of course (I was obviously the naive one in the group). They took me into the girls bathroom, and said that in order for her to come out, I had to put a possession that was close to me by the mirror. Oh, I know! Your glasses, Bri! (See? naive as f-ck). Okay so, they turn off the lights, spin me three times and do the Bloody Mary chant, and tell me to open my eyes. Those little f-ckers took one of those pens and pressed it down behind my head, so in my blurry dizzy state all I could see was a silhouette of a girl staring back at me in the mirror. Illuminated in RED light. Needless to say: I LOST MY SHIT, and to this day, I cannot look in a mirror until the lights are on. As an adult! I know it was me I was seeing, but it literally scarred me for life. One of those little assholes is still one of my best friends to this day, so Mia, consider two weekends ago long overdue karma ;) - thaaanks again though.

I moved out of my parents house, right into my boyfriends house. At 18. So up until this year, I had never lived fully alone. Ever. Suffice it to say, I was/am a mega scaredy cat. I don't believe in ghosts haunting me or shit like that, but I do believe quite firmly in serial killers hiding out underneath my stairs. Let's chalk that up to my adoration of crime scene shows, and crime documentaries. How I'm so afraid of people killing me in my home, but yet I'm so fascinated with watching shows that basically put that fear into me, I'm not sure, but It's a weird contradiction I hold dear. I learned my lesson to toughen up when my hydro bills practically slapped me in the face every time I got them. "Do you need to sleep with the lights on!? EVERY light? Buy a f-cking nightlight already if you're such a puss!"- BC Hydro. I used to do this when I'd be home alone at my parent's house too, but it's funny the shit you start caring about when you're paying for it on your own hey? Funny how that works.

I have no real point to this, except to say I've transitioned into full grown-up hood and sleep in the dark now, no night-light required - except I wouldn't say no to these, only for the fact that they're adorable. I mean, I check every possible hiding space a murderer could be chilling in first before I can go to sleep, but that's just self-preservation. Because as Marilyn put it, fear is stupid.

1 comment:

  1. Hahaha i am SUPER afraid of what hides in the dark, AND have a terrifying fear of bathroom mirrors--especially when I get up to pee in the middle of the night!! hahah
    P.S those nightlights are CUTE!